Can't breath...

I believe there's always a stage in life that we tend to feel smother and suffocated by thing and situations. I believe i'm have such a situation... lol... I think it's when things are too intense that we'll have a sudden urge to break free from what every the cause.

Hates the person i once called....

It's just the beginning of a nightmare. I was never fond of that person... And now it has turn to pure hate and disgust. How can such a person even live...? I'm really disgusted by his actions. Such an old bastard should know better.. How can he claim to be older and wise... ? I have totally no respect for him anymore... He doesn't appriciate my mum nor any one but himself... And i think that's sick and just a terrible thing to do to some one especially to some one close.... If he want's to leave , just leave and leave with dignity and be a man... But instead of doing that, he's acting like a total bastard and making our life misserable. He doesn't give my mum any money for the housewhole items and grosserys. and expects her to have money for food and others...

NOTE to the BASTARD... We're no beggars... if u feel like it u give her money, if u don't feel like it u don't.... And expect RM50 can buy a damn full cart of stuff.... He's a cheap and ball-less bastard...!!!
That's all i can say and to me ... U'RE ALREADY DEAD...!!!

The person i'm referring to was previously call my dad... but not anymore.... so get the fuck out of my face and leave my mum alone.... so cya asshole...

it's all new... =)

Well it's another year.... What a start, new job and it's totally different from what i've previousely done. I've jumped from a make up artist to a sale exec. for a telco company. Everything is still so new for me.. am still in the mist of training. I think i should be ok la.... But still hard to say... My memory might be failing me now... It seems kinda tough for me to remember... lol... side effects man...

Merry Christmas...

Recently, i'm noticed that the contents of my blog isn't really that uplifting.Lol... And since it's gonna be the holiday season, i really should be a bit cheerful after all the crap.... =) So here's and Early x'mas wish.... "Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to you guys!" Don't party too hard ya...

glitter-graphics.com

Stressful Neighbours

Recently, I've notice a certain increase in foreigners in the neighbourhood... It's starting to get really stressful living around here. There's a lot of Afro and middle eastern people... They're so called students but i think they are more of a menace here.. There are like so uneducated ppl and doesn't even have the common courtesy to being quiet and respectful to others around... They are like barbarians here. You can still find them chatting and shouting from the top floor of where they stay to the opposite building and to the car park... It's so annoying... They even do it after midnight and may i state that i'm living in an apartment which is why the whole block can hear their conversations....

They even have a weird liking as to talking really loud outside of their home which i find really odd. Like they don't have a home or something... We've tried to ask them to be quiet once but their reaction was to challenge us and he like wanted to start a fight... oh my... May i just state that they are a visitor in our country yet they act as if they own the place and act without respect and the right attitude...

I've also heard that there's a lot of fake passports and fake certificates going around. I think the government should really stop taking in so much overseas students... They're more of a threat to the country and to it's people...
It's staring to get scary here... I'm sure it's happening at a lot of place around kl...

Unashame Old Fox...

Friday night, thought it would be a great night just to chill and go for a movie... But guess who i say... my dad... how unlikely, he's never taken us to the movies ever... and here he is with that unashamed old fox. Suddenly, i was over come with disgust and just felt sick from the sight. It's sad how he could just leave my mum at home and hang out with that B*tch.. ( Which has made all our life miserable ) At last, I've seen her face... short, short hair, glasses and unappealing. I made sure he knew i was there and yet what made me sick was that he could still smile and ask me about mum. I totally ignored him. I made my way right in front of them without looking at them and ignoring his questions.... I regretted that.. I should have stopped right in front of them and took a long cold look at that unshameful face... But i didn't... ( My dad has never even spend time just to understand us or care.. just by giving us shelter and money for studies and all... He thinks that's enough but it's not.. he's not even emotionally connected to us. He's never even taken us to the cinema.... Never... and there he going with that shameless B**** )
I've always heard people telling me that it's none of our business as children. But i can't hep but disagree with that statement. How can something be happening in the same family not be of any business of us... We're all connected in a way. People always assume that the parents are always with the trouble when encountered with such a situation, but it isn't true. I always get this unseen pressure from both sides. It's like my dad would always blame my mum that she's not doing her job in teaching us and all... and she would blame us for not behaving and making my dad turn to the other house.... And that wasn't all... there's the hearing them fight abt the other house and the cries and screams of divorce... And just all the tensions... At that time i was pretty young... It was just a stressful family... We may look normal to others but not many know about whats going on...

I've always wondered how can someone whose been so close to another being be so cruel? Is there lack of communication or love or just everything? He has made me lost so much... I've lost faith in men, in love, in forever...

Although, I've not been close to my dad even since i was younger, but i still had a respect for that man. I've always though that he was some one that was honest and loyal... like the Chinese would say "The cat that doesn't eat fish" or " A person who'll have feces rather than steal." But ever since, i knew respect for that man turned to Zero. None what-so-ever. I've even stopped calling him. And then it goes again mum blaming me of making him turn to the other side... and he would start using us as topic of her not doing her part and threatening her of divorce... So just tell me ... How can it not be our problem too?? we face the stress and emotional roller coaster too... And yet, we don't have any say in it...
I'm starting to find myself depressing and just sick. How can something start with love and trust end up like just a fair trade of co-existing?? I've though many times of the day I'll see her face... I would walk up to her stare her in the eyes and just give her a cold hard slap on the face... Why would or could a woman ever share a man and knowingly ruin another family for her selfish needs... I despised her...
Although, I've been with a man who's already married. But i knew i couldn't do it... I stopped myself from going on any further. How could my dad not see what he was doing when i myself could know. And they say parents know more than us...

The hurt, the stress and the emotional tension .....

depressing

It's another depressing news, another relative with colon cancer. Now he's in Icu. . . It's becoming really comman these days...


Monday will be a new experience for me... It's a new work place and something new to me. Sales... never really done anything like it b4 ( sale promoter doesn't not count ) Excited and intimidated at the same time....

About to blast... 3...2...1... Blast Off.!

I'm kinda upset abt my mum going on and on and on abt the countings of these Visiber. Actually, i have nothing against all these superstitions but it's really going way overboard. I'll have to rip my head off just to keep myself sane... It started like this... My cousin's wife is one of these so called agents who calculate your birthday and all to find out about you. And so she started counting for my family and my mum started to indulge in all these babling... I was just curious and so i listen to what she had to say about me... Thinking it was all just for fun... But heck.. my mum got so drawn into it.. thinking it's like a bloody saviour... She starts to spend on all the numbers and products my cousin's wife's advices. And now she's still feeding my mum with all those stuff on people that are negative that should be in my home...asking me to not asking certain people over and all... OMG!!! It's seriously the last straw... I have been putting up with all the bullshit long enough... And now this.... It's seriously too much... I CAN'T TAKE IT ANY LONGER!!!!!

This is my first nephew in Japan..

This is My second nephew.

Just to share a few pictures of my niece and nephews... They're like so cute...

This is my niece .. >>

Movie mania...

I was really glad that i got to catch 2 movies lately.. Haven't been visiting the cinemas for ages... And so I was so looking forward to watching The Coffin, I thought it was supposed to be a siamese movie but it turned out to be in English... What a bonus.. I don't have to read the subtitles... lol... I've heard that the movie didn't had a great review, but i was keen on watching it. Guess what? I thought it was alright.... no seriously... it isn't that bad... I found it rather scary and boy did i let out a lil'scream... *blush* It had it's frightening moment.. Plus it had a simple twist to it in the end...
Next on my movie list was Madagascar 2. I'm a big fan of cartoons and this was a "Not to be missed Movie". lol..
It was so much better then i expected... It was freaking funny... !! I thought it was better then the first one. This one had so much more to offer. For all those who's haven't seen it... Go quick...!! And you'll be moving it.... =)

Right now I'm like a spoiled lil'brat looking forward to all the cartoons soon to be screened in cinemas.... Thank god for the school holidays... There's Igor, Bolt and Space Chimps soon to come... Yippie.... !